Got to thinking about a conversation I had last night with a friend from WAY back.... like 10 or so years back. She was asking me about my life now and why I left Kelso. So, what do I tell someone I haven't seen in over 10 years? I didn't really know, so I told her the truth.
Flash back to March 2000, I was 15 years old and didn't really think I had a whole lot going for me any more. Sure, I had a boyfriend (who was a loser, BUT all the same... I had one), I had my family (the only one who REALLY seemed to care was my mom and my 1 year old brother who liked everyone so what does that tell ya), and I had.... well that was really all I had.. no friends... nothing. You might be wondering what cause the lack of (to put it simply) EVERYTHING. Well, February 10th that year I happened to skip school with a guy who WAS NOT my boyfriend and everyone was pissed. My dad was mad cause I skipped and because of who I skipped with, my boyfriend was mad because I skipped with another guy, some people were pissed because I skipped with someone that they WANTED, and some people were just mad because they wanted to be on everyone elses good side.
Any ways, back to March. My mom was noticing that I was really depressed, just not me at all. I tried to hide it, but my mom who sees everything (and I thank GOD everyday that she does) knew what was going on. I had spent a month or more trying to kill my self. I tried so many things, but it either didn't work or someone came in the room before I was able to succeed. My mom realized what was going on and moved me out of my dads. My dad let me go, but not with out making me sign a paper stating that I would move back at the end of the school year. I signed, but knew that there wasn't anything that would make me go back there.
My friend didn't seem at all suprised when I told her this. Maybe she knew already, maybe I wasn't as good at hiding my pain as I thought I had been. But oh well... that was 10 and a half years ago. I'm a differen't person now.... I'm a better person now. I'm a 26 yer old mother to an amazing son who lights up my entire world, I have the most amazing man in my life, I am happy, I have most of my family back, I graduated highschool (2 years late, but I did it and thats all that matters), and I have a job that I love. Life couldn't be much better. And I have my mom to thank for that... she SAVED me.
Thank God for mothers. So happy to hear you are doing well now; it took courage to share that. Have a great weekend!
ReplyDeleteYour Mom is a sweet person, I see where you get it from. Im glad your not that 15 year old anymore, and you should be very proud of yourself. For every bad thing happening, there is some sort of good (simple or not) around the corner, sometimes the corner is a long walk to it, but its always there. I imagine being a parent probably helps bring you up a lot, anyways, im glad your the person you are now, your parents are probably very proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI don't remember your Mom very well. I remember the general appearance of her, but I don't think I ever really talked to her.
ReplyDeleteI'm a firm believer of "everything happens for a reason", so... your everythings got you to where you are today, and thats awesome.
Thanks for sharing your story, Kari.
Thanks Kari....I love you!!!!
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